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Secrets Secrets Secrets!
It's been six months since we were in here, and I'm bored. Tell me your secrets, Fandom. Big ones, dirty little ones, or the very best kind -- big dirty ones.
As always, this is OOC-but-IC.
As always, this is OOC-but-IC.
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And I can't tell my BFF because it might put him in danger. :(
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The short version is that I'm the body double for a princess a bunch of alien demons want dead. So, if they find out some civilian boy knows Sailor V? They're not above hurting him to get to me.
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And she'd loathe that I'm doing it. Of course.
In marginally less depressing news, Raven wants a baby, asked me to be the father, and I don't bloody well have a mouth to drink because I have no idea what to do.
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As for the second -- are they putting something in the water in Kaeleer that makes people think ill-advised babies are an incredible idea? Remind me to keep Emma away for a decade or so.
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And... Christ, I don't know. I was thinking of possibly adopting someday when I'm less... me, right now, in the head. This seems a hell of a lot bigger than me. But then, I can't drink the water, and would really like to thump a few people on the heads
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Isn't Raven a demon? Not that I'm prejudiced -- some of my best friends, etc. -- but that doesn't exactly scream "maternal instinct" to me.
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I don't know, mate. I'd like to be a father someday, preferably to some child I haven't passed my screwed-up genetics on to, but something about this is just...
I'm concerned.
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Of course, I'm fully planning on eventually fathering a half-mutant/half-werewolf or three. So there is some pot calling the kettle black, here.
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Those children... how many of them are going to ever happen?
This island is very good at showing people some very beautiful fantasies. But that's all that they are.
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Well, I say "people". I mean "child molesters and other perpetrators of rudeness".
Also, I rather like this cat.
And the flamingos aren't too bad, either. Even if they do make my lawn look like a cheap midwestern trailer park.
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I am, however, extremely judgmental about the fondness for flamingos.
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Which might actually be a consideration, in this place.
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Some people ought to be killed.
Father tried to teach me to forgive, and I have tried my best, but it's hard to forgive those who are hurting innocent children.
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NO.
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Except for the cold and wet. Ick.
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...wait, a lot of people know that, now. Not a great secret. Let me think.
Um.
...um, I...I don't think my mother is a very nice person, maybe. And I don't know who to tell, or even if I should tell, or whether I'm even right about it. But I'm starting to think she lied to me about a lot of stuff. And that makes me wonder about why. And I can't come up with a nice answer.
So that's a thing I haven't told anyone.
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My mother is a terrible person who never loved me. She had awful reasons for doing things. Your mother might actually have nice reasons for being how she is, but she might also be a bad person. That doesn't mean you aren't.
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And the one and only person I've ever told assured me that it absolutely isn't my fault, and that I shouldn't feel guilty over it, but the thing is: it is. I know it is. It's because of what I am, and how she reacted to that.
And I have to live with that.
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Your mother was troubled and mad and had demons that dragged her into the darkness. That had to be what happened. Because the other possibility, that she simply gave up on a beautiful, loving child, because goodness, there were obstacles? That would make her, by every consideration, a worse mother than my own.
And I'm not even sure such a thing is humanly possible.
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I'm not sure I know what love is. I don't say it back, when Joker says it, because I'm pretending it'll hurt less if I don't admit it.
I'm starting to think that's stupid.
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The truth I've seen is this: the definition of love is different to each person. Even your mother may have defined her relationship to you as one of love. Would that make her crimes any less? Don't get caught up in semantics; say it if you want to, don't if you prefer not. Define it however you wish, and then be true to that.