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[decoder-rings.livejournal.com]

Tell me a secret, Fandom High. Something no one else knows.

If you don't have any secrets, tell me one thing you wish would happen to you.

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[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

I wish someone would ask me out.

...shut up. Or you will taste like earwax for a week.

[wantstodirect]

A particular someone or just any someone?

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

Well, someone I like.

Mostly, I'm just lonely. And I feel as if I'm bothering people with much better things to do.

If this wasn't the therapy comm, I wouldn't admit this except under torture.

[wantstodirect]

If you like someone, you're allowed to ask them.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry if I wasn't clear, but there's no one specific. I'd just want it to be someone I, well, someone I like.

And I don't feel confident enough to ask anyone else out. I can't imagine anyone wanting to spend their time with me over just about anything.

[wantstodirect]

Well, it starts with finding someone you like. And no one's confident about this stuff. You just have to fake it.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

Why like someone if they don't like you? It seems sort of doomed to failure.

Fake it? Really?

[wantstodirect]

How do you know whether they like you if you don't get to know them?

Really. Asking people out is scary.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

Well, yes. Which is why I've never done it.

And generally I'd say they aren't interested if they don't ask me out. After all, why would anyone be scared of asking me out?

[watch his mun facepalm]

[wantstodirect]

Because how would they know if you'll say yes?

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

Why wouldn't I?

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

I'd like that too.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

No one has?

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

No.

Not ever.

One boy offered to show me that sex was quite wonderful and he did that, but I don't think it quite counts as a date. Haven't seen him since either.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

Was that here?

I had an experience a little like that and really didn't enjoy it after the fact.

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

Yes.

It was really amazingly wonderful and I'm very grateful to him for showing me that it's more than just something quick and sticky and semi-painful.

But it made me realize I like that feeling of closeness...

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

I... got the quick and sticky and not so much painful as--

Yes. That is.

That's what I like as well. The closeness.

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

I never knew what it was like before, but now I do and... I crave it.

But I don't make friends well.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

You and me both, lass.

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

*sigh*

Someone did kiss me and offer more for another time, but I think he's forgotten.

[new-to-liirness.livejournal.com]

That's unfortunate.

[elephantgadget.livejournal.com]

*shrug*

Probably for the best.

But someday... it would be nice....