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Tell me a secret, Fandom High. Something no one else knows.

If you don't have any secrets, tell me one thing you wish would happen to you.

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...then maybe you should just leave me alone.

Easier said than done.

And I've tried, too.

I've given you all the warning signs; it's not my fault you can't seem to see them. Or choose to ignore them.

When you care for someone, warning signs are easily overlooked or sometimes they are misinterpreted altogether.

Besides, even if it weren't for all that...

...leaving you alone is something a good person would do.

I don't see why it's so hard. Just do it. Just say it.

...save me from inevitable heartbreak.

Oh, yes, because you're the only person who's going to be hurt in this situation, too. Spare me the innocence act. You know everything about me. It's not my fault you can't...or refuse to...look at the larger picture.

It's not my fault you want to save something that doesn't need (or want) to be saved.

I look at it, I see it - it's not so easy to deny my feelings.

You think I want to save you? You're wrong. I just want to care for you but seeing where that will eventually go, I'm not sure I'm strong enough.

And, really, your strength is not my problem. No one else's is, except my own. I'm strong enough for myself, and so that's who I look out for. And maybe my family.

Which only has me guessing as to what I am to you in the first place, besides the reader of your story.

You were there. You were receptive. You were available.

That's not to say that I don't care for you, because I do. A lot. It's just...complicated.

And I wish I knew this beyond therapy.

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