I've never met my father, and have been told for years that this is because I'm not of a high enough rank to earn the privilege. There are rumors that he's gone all absentee on us, that he doesn't actually care about us and has some other family he likes better (wouldn't be the first time), or that he's dead. It's even possible that my father doesn't exist and never did.
Despite all this I'm still expected to follow -- and even anticipate -- his every whim with no better explanation than that he "works in mysterious ways". And then I get yelled at for turning around and giving other people that explanation.
What's up with that?
ETA Oh, yes, I don't even actually have a mother. My father didn't really decide to try the whole mother thing with his kids until a good two thousand years or so after I came around. Now there are shrines erected to her and prayers in her honor. Talk about your trophy wife.
Ah yes, that reminds me: the whole debate about whether my father's actually a guy. So, you know, he might actually be my mother.
And, of course, there's the part where he's actually a totally vengeful sort and likes to order you to go around killing people's first born, then get mad when you say you're not sure that's a great idea and expel you from his house forever and ever.
That's why my sister ran away from home. Well, not the first born part, but the rest of it. And now she's out to get me to turn on Pops, too, but won't pitch in to help or anything, because, no, I have to figure all that out for myself.
It might be worth looking into, certainly. But there is the matter of my trust issues, as my closest brother turned out to be a murderer working for our estranged older sibling who demanded I join him or die.
Then I had to watch my sister kill him.
Oh, and my only real confidant thinks I'm an asshole. Well, the only one I had before Fandom, that is. The one I have here keeps trying to profile me.
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Despite all this I'm still expected to follow -- and even anticipate -- his every whim with no better explanation than that he "works in mysterious ways". And then I get yelled at for turning around and giving other people that explanation.
What's up with that?
ETA Oh, yes, I don't even actually have a mother. My father didn't really decide to try the whole mother thing with his kids until a good two thousand years or so after I came around. Now there are shrines erected to her and prayers in her honor. Talk about your trophy wife.
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And, of course, there's the part where he's actually a totally vengeful sort and likes to order you to go around killing people's first born, then get mad when you say you're not sure that's a great idea and expel you from his house forever and ever.
That's why my sister ran away from home. Well, not the first born part, but the rest of it. And now she's out to get me to turn on Pops, too, but won't pitch in to help or anything, because, no, I have to figure all that out for myself.
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Then I had to watch my sister kill him.
Oh, and my only real confidant thinks I'm an asshole. Well, the only one I had before Fandom, that is. The one I have here keeps trying to profile me.
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At least I'm one of the rare few who doesn't have issues with my parents.
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