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[sixstandingby.livejournal.com]

It's been awhile since this kind of therapy was offered so we do it now. Tell me a secret OF YOURS, Fandom. Tell me something no one else knows. Tell me something you haven't said out loud to anyone yet. And if you don't have a secret, well then, confess something truthful that might not be a secret but you'd still like people to know!

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[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

Turns out I only really like guys who remind me of my sadistic, manipulative older brother.

Sigh.

At least it's better than liking the ones who remind me of my younger brother, since those are all, like, fifteen.

And someone I'm just not sure if I'm as good at this whole 'appearing to be utterly boring and plain' thing. It's hard to want to be boring around so many interesting people.

[rocksthescarf.livejournal.com]

There is absolutely nothing wrong with liking guys that are sadistic and manipulative.

Just saying. We're the fun ones.

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's not the sadistic and manipulative part that I'm worried about.

It's just the fact that no matter how much I like them, they'll just never be as good as Peter.

Healthy.

[rocksthescarf.livejournal.com]

I cannot, in good conscience, berate people for having unhealthy relationships with their siblings.

So you just keep on keeping on.

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

And how could I help feel anything but encouraged to know that you've got my back in this one, Chuck.

[sixstandingby.livejournal.com]

There's that many sadistic, manipulative like guys at the school now?

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

I'm being generous. And maybe hopeful and settling on vanilla.

No.

Low-fat sugar-free vanilla.

[sixstandingby.livejournal.com]

Now you've just made me hungry.

At least you like them, though? Friends are good! Or whatever they are.

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

The only friend I've really had for most of the past six years was my brother.

...the whole idea of other people is just weird.

[bitten_notshy]

Well, hearing this managed to confuse me even more, and I thought I was already confused about our friendship.

My secret would be that I do like you. The circumstances, on my end, aren't right. But I do.

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

Ah, now, you're an anomaly because you fit the rare category of guys I'm interested in because they remind me of the other brother. Not because you're fifteen and stupid, but because I can hold a conversation with you that satisfies me enough that I don't start thinking about how I can manipulate our friendship to my benefit.

[bitten_notshy]

I don't know if I'd be that easy to manipulate to start with -- but I'll take that as the compliment it seems to be. (And I don't particularly mind being compared to Ender, either. Just as long as you don't think I'm a sadist.)

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

Great, now you have me just wondering if the reason I don't try to manipulate this is because I know it wouldn't be so easy. Ah, the joys of being a Wiggin....

(And, no. If the ball had to drop one way or the other on that one, you'd strike me as much more the masochist instead.)

[bitten_notshy]

Let me put it this way: I do what I want to do. If you manage to convince me I genuinely want to do something that would further your goals, I might help you. But it's simpler to ask, with me.

(... and being bitten by a vampire regularly, not that you know that just yet, is not masochistic. Really.)

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

It's all about perspective, really. I have been pretty good so far getting people to think that what I want is what they want, as well....

[bitten_notshy]

Which is fantastic, and when people routinely overpower a thousand-year-old vampire detective through batted eyelashes and sheer stubbornness, I'll believe you could manipulate me. Until then, I'm not people.

So there's my perspective.

[a-demosthenes.livejournal.com]

Good to know.

And maybe just getting your perspective was exactly what I was going for.