FEARS

[bitten_notshy]

It is BDE eve and I am bored, so it feels like time for Therapy.

What are you afraid of, Fandom? What keeps you up at night?

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[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

That someone will find out what I can do and use me, and I'll lose the ability to have my own life.

That I won't ever get to be normal.

That I'm not even human.

[bitten_notshy]

Normal is dull, as far as I can tell.

But I do hope you can keep the life you want.

[oops-mbad.livejournal.com]

Normal is overrated, and there's nothing wrong with not being human.

Labels, pah.

[thegirl-onfire.livejournal.com]

I'm terrified of making the wrong move, here or at home. One toe out of line, and they're going to kill everyone I love.

And there's always the arena. I'm terrified for every tribute I'll ever mentor. Or that Prim might really have to go in, some time in the next six years. There's no immunity for victors' siblings.

[bitten_notshy]

No immunity for your sister? Oh, that's just hideously cruel. As is the whole thing, really.

And again with the meta knowledge abuse

[sexonyoursheets.livejournal.com]

I'm scared I'll end up like my dad and flake out on everyone who ever counted on me.

Or I'll get stuck in Lima forever.

[chief-cheerio.livejournal.com]

At least we're here. Sure, it's bizarre, but even if we go right back after high school -- which I so totally will not -- it's more than most of the Lima Losers manage.

I don't want to end up like my mom, either.

[furnaceface]

Nightmares are about th'worst of it. Memories, mostly, that remind me of just how dangerous I am.

Worse than those are the nights I dream of kissing. Those ones never end well. They're right up there with the days I think of it, and then realize what could happen if I did.

And I can't look into mirrors. I just... can't.

[living_endless]

I'll be your mirror
Reflect what you are, in case you don't know
I'll be the wind, the rain and the sunset
The light on your door to show that you're home

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you're twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
'Cause I see you

I find it hard to believe you don't know
The beauty that you are
But if you don't let me be your eyes
A hand in your darkness, so you won't be afraid

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you're twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
'Cause I see you

(Or, in case saying it in your language wasn't enough: I love you. Always. So there.)

[exspeedydotcom]

Heroin.

No, that's not exactly true. I fear that my own weakness will lead to relapse.

[bitten_notshy]

It seems cruel that time doesn't make you fear that less.

[eyesofahero.livejournal.com]

My own weakness.

Being someone else's puppet.

Hurting people I care about.

[bitten_notshy]

It seems to me like not being weak gives you an easy way to get out of the last two, doesn't it?

[angelo_wings]

I'm terrified that I will lose control and hurt someone I care about. Most sorceresses go bad. It would be so easy to just ... give in. I hate that.

[bitten_notshy]

You're abetter woman because you have it inside you and you don't. I think strength can only be found in being tested.

... not that that helps you much now, though.

[notagoodslayer.livejournal.com]

Going back to evil.

Or, you know, being a teenager again. They go hand by hand, actually.

[bitten_notshy]

How did you grow out of it?

[byneptunesbeard.livejournal.com]

[bitten_notshy]

... I can't ping back to that. Here, have a pretty naked boy as a prize.

[solo_sword]

Right now, I'm worried about what it is my brother's doing out Force knows where, and if me being a bad teacher is going to allow him to mess with Ben if things go bad.

Other than that, I'm not worried about anything I should be worried about, omfg.

[bitten_notshy]

Ouch. There's no way for you to contact your brother?

[pastmewrong.livejournal.com]

Scared that one day I won't be strong enough to fight it anymore. Fight them.

Already getting harder to ignore that there's something wrong in my head sometimes.

[bitten_notshy]

They have doctors you can talk to about that, don't they?

I'm sorry.

[dontvotemeout]

Not being good enough, and getting sent back to live on the streets again.

I doubt it'll happen but, you know, subconscious fears don't always have to make sense.

[bitten_notshy]

*glances up* I think if asking this question has taught me anything, it's that fears don't always make sense.

[squire-hand.livejournal.com]

That I killed Anita when I tried to stop Laughing Jack's assassination attempt.

That I killed Arutha by not stopping the Nighthawk with the crossbow that night.

That the Black Slayers come for everyone. Everyone. And cannot be stopped.

That so many others that I've killed come for me.

[bitten_notshy]

You might stop killing people, perhaps?

[anarchist-queen.livejournal.com]

I am afraid of the ocean, and the many things in it that want to eat me, or just some of the creepy crawlies that reside there.

I am also afraid of Rutger Hauer Lord Corwyn of the Unseelie. He had my parents killed and he wants me dead too.

[bitten_notshy]

I'd worry about the Lord a bit more than the ocean, then.

[willbethenight.livejournal.com]

Everything I was ever afraid of happened when I was eight years old. Now the only thing that keeps me up at nights is a thirst for vengeance against crime.

No, really.

[bitten_notshy]

I almost want to say that makes you a lucky man.

Almost.