Fandom Therapy - Confession Edition

[icecoldfrost]

It's Wednesday and I'm bored, darlings.

So come sit over here by your Auntie Emma and tell me a secret that no one else knows. Confess something that's been on your mind. If you don't have any secrets - which is a lie, although I'd never be so rude as to say so to your face - tell me something you wish would happen to you. Who knows? Maybe your telepathic fairy godmother - or those other people that live here - can help you with whatever it is that worries your pretty little brain.

The management promises not to use anything for nefarious purposes. Cross my heart and hope to lie.

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[trigons_child]

Ever since I came back, I have found myself wandering into the dreams of others unintentionally.

[icecoldfrost]

So? Put what you learn in a little mental box labeled 'interesting but not vital' and go about your day. They're asleep, what do they care if you pop in by accident?

[redheadbabyvamp.livejournal.com]

I'm really afraid I'm gonna kill somebody by accident again. I mean, Pam told me how to stop myself from drinkin' too much and all, and it worked when I drank from Dana's brother, but I'm still kinda scared I'm gonna mess up again and get in trouble. Especially since I really really really hate Tru Blood. I need to drink the real stuff!

[icecoldfrost]

Darling, I am possibly the worst person to give you advice on this, since I was severely vampirephobic for over a year, and one of the reasons I took the job at Devil's Nest was to try and force myself to deal with my issues. Add an ounce or two of teal deer to your Tru Blood and, well, deal with it.

Or get Eric to take you on a field trip for lessons, but don't tell me if he does.

[endsthegame]

Most of my big secrets have been well-documented and stored elsewhere, if anyone cared to hack into the right systems.

The remaining ones are mine, Emma. Especially the three big ones.

...

Have a smaller one: Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I died and I wouldn't have to bother anymore.

[icecoldfrost]

Oh, but I'm the best secret-keep, Wiggin. I can't be hacked like a computer.

But as for the secret you gave me...if you died when? Now? Earlier? Dying now would upset Karla, so I'm afraid I can't allow that.

But if you died/had died/killed yourself, it would be a waste. You owe it to yourself to be astonishing, darling. Not to anyone else; go off and be a landscape painter if you want, but not dying so you 'wouldn't have to bother,' that's just lazy and vulgar.

[glacial_queen]

Sometimes...a lot of times really...I wish my whole life hadn't been mapped out by what was basically an accident of birth. The more I look at my life, the fewer choices I seem to have.

Sure, I could just say 'screw it' and run off to become an actress/lawyer/whatever, but that's not really a choice.

[icecoldfrost]

You could. If you wanted to go to college, I would forge/buy the identity stuff to get you into ESU, and you could be my roommate.

But you wouldn't be happy, because that same accident of birth formed part of your nature. You need to be a Queen, to have a land to care for, or you'd curl up on yourself and go quietly mad. Is it fair? No, but I think by now we both know that life isn't fair.

[bitten_notshy]

I don't think there's anything about me you haven't pried out or realized for yourself by now, but I'll answer a question if you have any.

[icecoldfrost]

MMM....favorite part of living with Sebastien that has nothing to do with biting?

[life_inshadow]

Sometimes when I see what Karla or Raven or some of the others can do with magic, I get so jealous it's like ... it's like power is this fire? And it terrifies me, but at the same time, it's so warm I have to step closer.

I almost wish I were either much better ... or just, um. Just couldn't do magic at all.

[icecoldfrost]

If you're drawn to it like a fire, life without it would suck. I can't imagine living life without my telepathy, I'd hate it.

[chosehumanity]

So I may have wound up becoming the vampire king of Bristol and slid a few points down on the morality scale in the process... but I'm doing it all to wean them off blood, I swear.

[bitten_notshy]

Emma, I'm stealing this one for a moment.

What? How does that happen? Most people don't just walk down the street and la, la, la, today I'm a king.

Seriously, what?

[old-and-busted.livejournal.com]

I'm a part of a top secret agency with no government oversite that polices, monitors and directs all alien activity on earth.

I'm here on the island as part of a investigative effort to determine if there is any kind of threat. And to improve mail service.

[icecoldfrost]

Of course we're all threats, darling. Why, did someone tell you otherwise?

[lordofthecats.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I am not sure if I want to go back home to become the leader of my people. I don't know if I'll ever be ready.

[icecoldfrost]

If you ever feel ready, your time has passed. Just get out there and do it, or regret it when you realize the window has closed.

[chief-cheerio.livejournal.com]

The thing with Puck was a mistake. But now I think about having sex again all the time.

There's seriously something wrong with me.

[icecoldfrost]

Darling, I can promise you ten-thousand percent that there is nothing wrong with you. You're just like every other teenager in this school.

[longislandiceme]

There's a copy, or a remnant, or something, of you that's been in my head ever since you took that little joyride with my body and at first it freaked me out and I couldn't think of anything but how I wanted it gone? But then I almost sort of got used to it and let me tell you, that freaked me out even more. You- she- it's been awfully quiet lately, though, maybe it's not there anymore? I don't know.

[icecoldfrost]

Just think of me as your own inner Jiminy Cricket and do what I tell you, Robert, and you'll be fine. Although I'd love a chance to peek back inside your brain to see what she really is.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

It's really, really fun when I lose myself in my fae side. For that moment, anyway. I feel alive, and powerful and completely limitless. Every emotion I have feels richer when I lose myself in that madness. And it terrifies me how tempting it is to just give in to that.

[icecoldfrost]

Exhilarating, isn't it? Using my powers gives me much the same high - especially during sex - and sometimes I wish I'd never come down.

[faithandscience.livejournal.com]

My father killed my mother. Everything I've done since the day I found her body has been me trying my best not to end up being anything like him at all.

[icecoldfrost]

You aren't the only one trying outdistance themselves from a parent. Perhaps all our fathers will end up in the same corner of hell.

[twintuitionist.livejournal.com]

I think I sometimes live through my brother too much. Not all the time. Just ... he's way more daring about dating and drinking and stuff, and I like to hang back and store it all up.

[icecoldfrost]

I was the same way with my brother, until he died. So all I can say is to enjoy it, darling, and don't worry about it. You'll have your own time soon enough.

[likes_scoundrels]

Because of coming to Fandom, I know about a lot of the things I'm supposed to do and be in the future. But there's a little part of me that's terrified I'll do something wrong and end up making everything worse instead of better.

And I don't think I'm going to be able to just let my son die.

[icecoldfrost]

So don't. Timelines mean nothing here. Push forward, and when the time comes, change it. You won't know unless you try, and fear is only going to hold you back.

[on-her-korhal.livejournal.com]

I'm actually a half-alien who murdered or took horrible vengeance on all the jackasses who abused her as a human. I know the endtimes are coming and that I will be required to devour the multiverse before getting eaten myself, and I'm using all of you to help me get there.

... and at the same time, the human part of me won't stop clinging to Zeratul's infernal ramblings about hope...

[icecoldfrost]

Are you surprised that I am utterly un-surprised and a bit delighted about the horrible vengeance? Because I think that sounds wonderful. Although I'll confess that being devoured does not sound appealing, and I can't see you just letting yourself be eaten.

[dabblinginbitch.livejournal.com]

I just want to date someone who actually cares about me. Not someone awesome or powerful or even particularly talented. Just someone normal, whatever that means to me on that day, who likes me, and will actually take the time to find out what that means.

I know, it's pathetic.

[icecoldfrost]

No more pathetic than the 3/4ths of the student body that wants the same thing. You're just being a bit more melodramatically emo about it, with that hair of yours.

[vanillajello]

All the... wildly bad things I told Bod I think he thinks about me? Yeah, those are all just how I feel about myself, deep down. It's just easier if I tell myself it's someone else thinking that.

Oh, and I'm still kinda desperately in love with him. I'm sure that's a big fucking surprise.

[therewaslife]

It's a big surprise to me. I thought you hated me.

[thegirl-onfire.livejournal.com]

I'm waiting for my assassination. Every day could, theoretically, be my last, and at this point, I just spend my time hoping no one goes out with me.

[icecoldfrost]

Have you considered taking whomever it is out first, instead? God knows this school has the firepower.

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

I am not okay.

[icecoldfrost]

I know. Can I come nap with you this weekend, just to get away from all the happy families?

[therewaslife]

I really have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I feel like I'm just sort of floating through the days, waiting to find something that sets me straight and gets my focus back on track. It's not a detached feeling so much as a confused feeling.

I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend but the secret there is that I've finished initiating anything with her now. I've tried and I've been brushed off and rejected each time. I won't put myself out there anymore.

[icecoldfrost]

I've been told that being confused is a part of the teenage condition. Regarding Kate, however...I wouldn't even know what to suggest with her, and she's one of my dearest friends.

[pastmewrong.livejournal.com]

I get scared. Like, a lot of the time. And it's usually over things that only exist in my head, which feels really fucking pathetic.

[icecoldfrost]

Things never exist 'only' in your head, those things are the most real things of all.

[sexonyoursheets.livejournal.com]

I'm whipped.

That's not the secret.

The secret is that I like it.

[icecoldfrost]

As long as you like it, no harm, no foul.

[angelo_wings]

There's a crazy-powerful Sorceress in my head, trying to possess me. If she succeeds, she's going to kill people and try to end the world. If somehow we managed to oust her, she'd just fire up the machine she's using and start all over again. She, quite literally, has nothing better to do, because she needs another Sorceress in order to end the world, and I'm the only one living right now. I don't see a way out of it, and I'm starting to get paranoid and not trust my friends anyway.

[icecoldfrost]

I am never going to understand the idiots who want to end the world. What's in it for them? If you destroy everything, you loose too.

[tripledmyself.livejournal.com]

I kissed a girl and I liked it. Oh wait, no, that's no fucking secret. I think just about everyone likes kissing girls providing both parties are consenting and know what the hell they're doing.

Secret secret secret, hmm. Apparently, I really like cuddling. Let's just keep that between us, shall we?

[icecoldfrost]

Your secret is safe with me.