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This week I'm almost happy, for me, especially if I ignore the way my girlfriend brushes me off when I tell her I love her.

Last week, I had the guilt of having caused four deaths on my shoulders -- my dearest friend, my wife, my mother, and my wife's cousin.

It is a good thing Fandom is an island. It gives me more beach to be emo upon.

She brushes you off? Ouch. I get nervous when mine (I think we're at that point, at least) touches me sometimes.

Do you think she doesn't love you?

As for the rest, um, I have pie?

Not counting singing at each other, I said it three times. The first time she told me I had bad timing, the second time she ignored it entirely (granted, we were fighting about something else) and the third time she told me I was silly. So, yeah, I feel pretty comprehensively brushed off.

She warned me up front she had issues with the concept. But I feel like she does anyhow, probably? Maybe? Even if she'd kick me for calling it that.

Pie is good. And, hey, we both have "I killed my mom" angst. I think that calls for ice cream on the pie.

Complicated relationships are hard. Because they make you tired sometimes but you don't want to not be with the person. I have no idea why I talk like I know. I'm wondering why the girl I like likes me back.

And yes, definitely pie and ice cream. Mother issues. We could write a book.

Exactly. It makes me tired, but losing her would be worse.

I might have a few codependency issues.

Is Kaylee your girlfriend? I like her.

Maybe she'll come around? Maybe she's nervous? I'm not the best with relationship advice but I try.

I don't know, honestly. Maybe? It's hard to define and I am so not the person to take a guess. But, maybe?

All I can do is wait and hope,. It would be mad for me to turn this into something to fight about, anyhow.

I am happy for both of you, even if it's hard to define or makes you nervous. Love is the best thing in the world.

It also gives you more people to lean on, you know.

*eyes*

I'm trying to be better about not whining about everything in my life to everyone in the immediate vicinity.

But, since this doesn't count anyhow (which is why my mun is letting me talk like a normal human being, thank god) -- what would you say if I asked you about the thing with Yurika? Are three words really *that* big a deal?

I am A) your neighbour, B) your friend, and C) would much rather hear about other people's problems than my own. Seriously, whine away.

And, well, it depends on the person? I don't say it very often like, at all, so yeah, those words mean a lot to me. I care 'bout a lot of people, and won't ever say those words to them. To me, those three words, are permanent. You can't take them back, and you don't get over it if the relationship turns bad later. So, yeah. I don't know. Have you asked her about her opinion on those words? Not, like, related to you directly, but in general?

I say it about everyone. In canon I said it about a girl who barely talked to me.

I know it means more than that, now. But it's ... I feel it can be, not taken back, but overwritten.

And that came up a long time ago, actually. She said she didn't do love, even for her family. What am I supposed to do with that?

I'd show her with a hug then, with a dinner, every time you smile at her then make it a non-verbal 'I love you'.

Just avoid the words for now, and 'say' it in other ways. You've said it aloud three times, right? So she does know that, so maybe for a bit stay away from those words. If she's saying stuff like that about even her family, then, really, love probably burned her badly in the past.

...Ino?

I never knew you were a romantic.

*sigh* But, yes, I'll do that. All of it. I try to, anyhow, else I'd be saying it twice a day.

The thing is, I'm very good at pretty words. Pretty words are what I do.

I'm not sure what she sees in me, if she doesn't want those.

*blushes furiously* I am not a romantic! Take that back!

Romeo... seriously, you've got a lot of good points that don't involve pretty words. You're fun, you're hot, you're totally awesome for talking to. Seriously, I'd bet she's got a lot of things she sees in you.

I know a romantic when I see one, m'lady.

*pinkens* And thank you.

Romantics are gushy and sappy! *flails* I'm not one! Really!

Only telling the truth, you know. You're welcome.