The Future Freaks Me Out

[bitten_notshy]

So, children, what do you want to be when you grow up?

Half marks if you say "redeemed" or "good" or anything cliched like that. No one makes a living just by being redeemed.

[OOC: Because Tara's talking to Kennedy about it and I demand Friday OOC-but-ICness.]

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[furnaceface]

You know, one of th'worst things about this moment- this one, right this very instant, is that I'm not just acting childish. I feel it, too. I feel... small and stupid and helpless and afraid.

I don't love her because she coddled me. I don't love her because she tolerated me. I love her because she knew me, and even when I felt this way, it didn't feel as though th'walls were moving in more tightly around me. She kept telling me that I was strong, and I believed her. She was so... So easy to believe.

Maybe I'm just not certain who it is I'm supposed to be strong for, now. I don't feel it.

[living_endless]

One of the worst things about this moment, for me, is that part of me is still in love with you, and I'll never get to talk to you again except OOC-but-IC like this, and I'm wasting it lecturing you. Maybe that's as childish as anything you're doing.

I say you be strong for Jono Starsmore. He deserves it, and he isn't going anywhere.

[furnaceface]

I suppose... You'd know that better than anyone.

I am trying. For what it's worth. Trying is about all I can do. Maybe living will come after that. Maybe it won't.

The risks we take, moving forward.

I'm sorry I couldn't open my eyes.

[living_endless]

Don't be. All you missed was me waving and walking away really fast like a dork.

Trying is all I can ask for, that and moving forward. Thanks for doing it.

[furnaceface]

And thank you for a year spent, proving to me that I can.