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Tell me a secret, Fandom High. Something no one else knows.

If you don't have any secrets, tell me one thing you wish would happen to you.

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CRAZY-BITS.

But that one's old hat.

How about the fact that, if given the chance (which I have), I wouldn't change them for anything?

They're the perfect excuse to avoid getting close to anyone.

Even me?

...yes.

I still don't get how nothing has worked so far.

I wish I could help you.

That's the thing, though.

I don't need help. At the end of the day, all things considered, I'm oddly contented.

You're content in being close to no one?

So long as she's not here...

...yeah. I kinda think so.

I think I should be careful.

Yeah. Probably.

Especially since I'll insist all the warning signs were there.

It's not the perfect excuse to not have close friends though, Cal.

...it's not?

EXPLAIN YOURSELF.

You do realize that you can have friends, and close ones, without ever winding up with any sort of closeness that'd be even vaguely sexual. A hug does not mean that someone wants your body, but it still means that they're your friend. Got it?

What if I don't really want that kind of closeness with anyone, though?

~~Too bad!~~ Don't hide it behind an excuse, then. Just be... honest.

...Like you'd accept an honest answer if I gave it.

Oh, believe me. I'd accept that a lot easier than if I found you you were lying.

...what have I said that's a lie?

How should I know? You're the one that's talking 'bout honest answers.

That's my point. It's all honest; it's just usually not the whole truth. And you haven't accepted many of them very well. The whole thing with the hugs...didn't matter that I was uncomfortable.

I didn't like it. I still don't like it. But, you know what really bothered me?

That Amber got to be all SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE and hug you. So freaking sorry I didn't take that WELL.

Edited 2008-10-05 03:58 (UTC)

Why would it even matter?

Just because you didn't get to be that ~special snowflake~? If that's all it's about, maybe there's a reason it was Amber and not you.

'Cause I care about you, you stupid ASS. But no, it's always AMBER THIS and AMBER THAT and the rest of us don't even FREAKING MATTER just 'cause she's SO SPECIAL.

You'd had a freakin' rule. FINE. I didn't like it, I wasn't good about it. But, you know what, I was a LOT better about it before I realized you had EXCEPTIONS.

The rules got updated. You even got your damn hug.

So what's the problem?

To be fair, Bob Presto wasn't bad, he was just kind of an exploiter. Working with him got a roof over my head, food in my belly, and removed me from the threat of hobos that would beat me up.

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